So, the holiday season is over at long last! Not that I didn't enjoy it, but I was so so eager for this awful year to end! I had three people close to me die, and in between I just had dull, bleak, miserable occurances a little too often for my liking. A new year, a new start. I just love new starts, dont you? And you've got to take them as often as you can get them, especially when you live in such a small community as I do where everyone has a fixed opinion about everyone else. I wont deny it, but when I was little, i was a total geek. I wasnt friendless or bullied or anything like that but I certainly wasn't popular. Well I was an only child whose parents had a messy divource with aqn englishwoman for a mother with whom i lived with, of COURSE i was a little socially inept! Ok, that was a joke about dear *Mama*, of course I am very proud of my British heritage. In fact I'm so proud of it that I often get the mick taken out of me by feindish immature fules, the boys in my grade who have no sense of maturity whatsoever about it. But anyway, I am getting off topic. My point: In a town or school like this, you get set in a mold early on and to break that mold is harder than climbing mount everest. But recentlyyy I've really grown up a lot in the last year or two, but it's so so hard! I'm my regular amazing (thank you very much) self with my mum, or one on one with my really good friends, but when I get to school I cant help but slip into that dreadful mold! I suppose its my incredible actors malleability, ay? 
. But a new year a new chance to do it. In these past few days I've finally seen through all the crap between me and being moldness, all the silly fear, and I see how I could just forget about it and do what I want to do when I want to do it and not think about how other people will take it. So I'm gonna cut my hair short! May I make a small plug for an amazing youtube video you should all look up: type in "Blue Hair" or "Courtney Wolfson" and it should come right up. It was one of my inspirations. So I will have short hair by my next entry, maybe I'll feel less inhibited.
Rooooose
