Posts archive for: July, 2008
  • June 13, 2008 -- A CHARACTER UPDATE!

    hiii readers! (if there are any out there lol) I figured it was high time for a character update!
    Just to reiterate, these aren't actually characters, they are real people in my life. But I've given them names of famous literary stigma as pseydonyms. Have fun!

    ROSE. That's me! I'm interested in the performing arts, and I adore Jane Austen! She is my muse, which is why most of these people's pseudonyms come from her books. Some will have to come from others because of character likeness and my fondness of some other books but mainly they will derive from the masterful Miss Austen's incredible creations. I wish I could call myself Miss Elizabeth Bennett, but I'm nowhere near wise or well-tempered as her. I'm much more like Beatrice from Much Ado About Nothing. All the wit and joyfulness, but less of the sense. Or perhaps Miss Mabel from An Ideal Husband. It should also be said I'm an actress and I'm planning on making this passion into a successful career. LONG LIVE THEATER! Anyway, you will get to know me well enough by reading my entries, so on with the next person!

    *ORLANDO* sigh. My most recent One Tru Luv. Except this time it really WAS love. I can't explain it, read the *Star Cross'd Lovers* entry for details.

    *CHARLOTTE LUCAS* used to be my best friend ever. From the day we met in first grade to middle school! Then we started to grow up, and we drifted apart (she liked fashion, I liked music, which is funny because now we've switched places-- she's the indie-serious one and I'm the girly one!) but were still friends. Then in high school, it all came back together again. Now we're great friends!

    *MR. DARCY* my ex-one-tru-luv. What can I say about him? He's a comedian and an athlete, and very confident and well liked. Think brown eyes. Think... Italian looking, sort of. Unfortunately, he's not like Mr. Darcy at all, he's ... well kind of a jerk really, and very pompous. And yet likeable!

    *LUCY STEELE* the evil two-faced bitch. Now, if any of you have read Sense and Sensibility or seen the film, you know what I'm talking about. If you havent, I highly reccomend it. This name suits her so well. She's a manipulative control-freak queen bee, with a boyfriend who is WAY too good for her. In the many many years of knowing her, we've all been scortched by her. Think Regina George. The more she decides she's against a perfectly innocent person, the more that person strives to please her. Not me! I've had quite enough of her. What she does is she'll all of a sudden decide top be best friends with someone. Now someone with experience with her would know to immediately get away from her, but most people, when they get that spotlight attention on them, think, "Oh, it must be different with me!" it's not. Just when it seems like it might work out, she all of a sudden decides they're her enemy, and rounds up people to all turn against that person! When it finally seems like the person sees through her at last, she turns back around and befriends them! Insufferable woman!

    *EDWARD FERRARS* the aforementioned TOO GOOD boyfriend. They've broken up now (thank GOD) but he never once apologized for some of the mean things he said to me in that hot tranny mess of an argument when he was still believing that I was the bad one who had wronged his girlfriend: a pitiable fabrication.

    *JANE BENNETT* hmm. Before, she was described as my 'very best friend'. Now, though, I don't know. Well she's definately not my best friend anymore, but friend at all? Still in the fog. Read the blog to judge for yourself.

    *KITTY BENNETT* kitty kitty kitty. We've drifted apart as well. The thing about her is, she mean's well, but she's really hard to be around. She lies. Oh brother does she lie! She makes up people, she changes history, she says she's been out of town partying when I know for a fact she worked all weekend. She does it for attention and to try and seem cool, but it's still hard to be friends with a person you can't take seriously, who you never know if what she says is true.

    *MARY CRAWFORD* Ohhh GOD I love *Mary*!! She is a really cool friend who always knows if you're upset and always rushes to be there for you. My only qualm with *Mary* is that, if you read the first WHO IS WHO entry, I detail a failed relationship. She's STILL not gotten over it and it's been SEVEN MONTHS. I know I should be sympathetic, and I am, don't get me wrong, but I worry about her! She's making herself miserable by hanging on to the idea of him, and it's unhealthy. She already has anxiety problems, she doesn't need self-induced torment on top of that!

    *LYDIA BENNETT* I wish I could give her another name, but there it is. She is a great friend and confidante who lives very far away in another county, much closer to Town. But we IM all the time. As much as I love her, she has a lot of problems. Like Lydia, she's silly and doesn't know what's best for her. She always moves far too fast with men and then gets upset and wonders why they don't respect her. She also has a minor problem with drinking, and has several anxiety disorders. Most of this derives from, like Lydia, having a very silly mother. Her mom is a lovely person and very nice, but NOT a very good role model. I feel terrible about it, because *Lydia* is such a lovely wonderful person! She's nice and thoguhtful and always there for me.

  • Bliss... Heartbreak... Anger... and Contentedness?

    (~Before you read this, if you haven't, go back to the beginning and start from there! My Blog is a story, after all, and the beginning is usually the best place to start! I'll be posting an updated character key next time!!~)

    Bliss... Heartbreak... Anger... and Contentedness?

    I know that's quite a bit to take in, but it's true! I haven't written in forever because I've been far too occupied in nursing my broken heart.
    I know that last post sounded oh so promising, and it was! It got even better than that if you can believe it! There was this one saturday night where *Orlando* was the only chaperone on duty and it was GLORIOUS. We tickled, joked, talked, made up excuses to touch eachother in some way or another... and it went on and on until one day, whatever had all happened was totally gone. I think that he got a harsh word from his employer, or his on-again-off-again never-present "it's complicated" critical girlfriend. Had I forgotten to mention her? Ah well. Anyway, he totally ignored/avoided me, and then it got worse: he didn't avoid me, he just didn't show me ANY emotion, good or bad. It was like I was just another face in the crowd.
    Owch.
    So I embarked on a particularly exhausting journey of misery, weeping every moment... I felt physically ill, like I'd been poisoned somehow. Strange, isn't it... I'd always ridiculed people who took things that seriously and got that upset over a silly little fling... but you never know what you're talking about until you do it yourself I guess, because it HURT!
    I'm happy to say that the two most jaded and cynical of my friends, *Mary Crawford* and another friend who has yet to be introduced, *Charlotte Lucas* (actually come to think of it, I may have mentioned her) were the first to rise to the occasion. They let me whine to them endlessly, and even treated me to a doting movie night, which included chocolate and a Johnny Depp extravaganza. Love them ^.^
    However, I wish I could say the same for some OTHER friends. Remember dear *Jane*?
    Yeah. Didn't lift a finger. Which really annoys me, because I've ALWAYS been there for her! Even when she caused her problems herself, even when she whined on and on for months about not that big a deal, I always drop everything and run for her. And the one time I'm in a really bad place (for a few days I didn't eat. Not for control or anything, lol it wasn't anorexia, I just felt so emotionally sick, I needed a break from food) she barely even notices! She's so wrapped up in her boyfriend and the Cee Tee, that she just doesnt pay attention to anyone else's feelings.
    Annoying.
    Anyway, So now here I am. Summer holidays have started, and I'm working outside mainly. On this particular day, it's sunny and warm and breezy, and I'm listening to sweet Jack Johnson, and I'm content. To be honest, I have a very low tolerance for Misery, so I just made a decision to thro myelf into other things, and guess what: It worked! Sure I get a little sad when someone talks about him (which is close to never), but mostly I'm way too busy with theater and my job and my friends to care! It sort of makes me feel empowered and valuable, to think that I couldn't have a boyfriend anyway, I have to focus on my career on the stage! lol.
    Well that was the update, man-wise. I've certainly got more to tell about everything else (*Lydia* is coming to visit in three days! That'll be interesting ha ha) but as of now I'm tired. So TTFN!!

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